Now is definitely a time where a lot is up in the air. It's frustrating and scary for me but there's beauty in it as well. Let me explain....
I've sent in my med school applications and am waiting on any positive feedback--so far there is none. In the likely chance that I don't get in this year, I'm studying away to retake the MCAT in April. The fact that I don't know if I will get into a school next year, if I will be here looking for a job, if I will do a post-bac year....all leaves a lot to be determined. This makes things hard for Ryan as well. We're both graduating in the spring, but how can he apply for jobs if he has no idea where I'll be next year. Let's just add a little more uncertainty to the situation shall we? He doesn't know if he wants to pursue a career in the field he's been studying. This could potentially mean more school for him and more things that need to be planned, yet can't be planned.
Despite all this confusion and anxiety I find myself feeling extremely grateful. I have no idea where I will be next year or what I'll be doing, but I do know one thing. I know that no matter what ends up happening I am still extremely blessed. I have an amazing guy, great family, and a great small circle of friends. This puts me at ease because wherever I am, things will be just fine. I know that God has a plan and His timing is the perfect one. So while it would be easy to get caught up in the unknown, today, at this moment, I'm choosing to focus on all the good that is known.
